"Little Bastards"

I just had a two-three year old kid give me the middle finger as I was driving back home from the grocery store. I was minding my on business when this all happened and so I’m just a little taken by it all. What parent teaches their child or allows their child to just go around giving the finger to random strangers for no other reason then the little bastard can?

I don’t know what “parenting” has come to in this day and age but upon returning home I had a conversation with my older sister about the fact that this child is the resident “little bastard” of the neighborhood. Now, keep in mind that we’re talking about a child that’s not even five years old yet and he’s already known as a “little bastard” and the parents have been labeled “dead beats.” Now this is not a bad neighborhood that we live in either. We live in a new sub-division in Lawrenceville-Grayson, Georgia which isn’t cheap and the presence of this “little bastard” is a tad unsettling, to say the least.

I look forward to the day when I become a parent and I think about what “could” happen should I raise a “little bastard.” I shudder at the thought.
That’s all. Just wanted to rant about “little bastards.”

"Relationship Vs. Non-Relationship"

I’ve been involved with someone on and off since last November; lately it’s been more off as we’ve decided to cool it off due to several of our own complications that come with not only being a couple but in life…general.

It’s been a week since I last saw her and I’ve been on occasion thinking much of her but isn’t that what I should be doing? I can count on one hand the number of women I’ve been serious about. The list is even shorter for women whom I truly trust and have opened up enough to trust whole-heartedly without remorse and without regret.

I stand before you now a humble man with nothing more but yearning and desire. My “girlfriend” and I (if you can call her that) have had our issues, none of which in my opinion make for the so-called “deal breaker” yet we remain on the edge of – for now lets just call it – “insanity.”

As I’ve said, I’ve had much time to think about all this and dwell upon just what it is that keeps us apart while also creates a façade from which neither one of us wants the walls to come crumbing down to reveal the “truth.”

Maybe we are not meant for each other…any maybe I don’t want to give up that chance, however small and fleeting, that maybe we are. It’s a façade I want to have a belief in and I don’t want those walls to come crumbing down. For right now I need those walls to cling to and hold me up from day to day. At least for the time being.
But I no longer plan on waiting for someone else to knock down the walls. I plan on doing something about it so that it’s no longer a façade to hold me up but can represent a symbol of something stronger to cling to and to nurture.

"Today is a Good Day"

Haven't done much today in my over 10 hours of work at Gwinnett Convention Center but then again there are only a bunch of school teachers and stuff here for their "Bright From The Start" get together (which was here last week as well but this week it is on a smaller scale).

I've done more today in the way of working on my Ebay venture then anything else. I haven't even done much in the way of writing yet but still I comnsider this a good day. It could be a good day for many things. I've got many things straightened out in my life (yet there are still a ton not straight yet) and my health is reasonable good (although it could be better).

It's a good day because for once I'm not stressed out. For once I've got a few more things solved and/or figured out that I didn't yesterday. Now this may not be the be-all end-all of it all but it's a start and that has to count for something doesn't it?

Some people aren't even where I am. I guess I'm the lucky one after all.