Today is the last day of May 2009 and I for one will be making a few changes in my life (I hope this time). I say this but will it truly happen?
Been trapped in a personal relationship problem for some time and I've been wondering about how to proceed especially since either one would take me down a path I thought I had left behind me in the past. I, not one to be hindered by "feelings" and "emotions," I've always done what was easier and what would give me a short term enjoyment (thus my always being single) but as I get older I wonder if my "childish" outlook on life has turned me into a "bastard of men" or a "stoic" and "heartless man." I've been called heartless before and I hate to admit that at the time I was indeed heartless to her not only because of my lack of emotions but also because of my lack of feelings for her emotions.
Other times I've been dubed clueless because frankly (and most men will agree with me) that I can't read a woman's mind (and even if I did I'm not sure I want to know how it completely works and processes information - that might scrare me too much) and I should be able too even if I can't. A canundrum if there ever was one.
I love women in all their many splenders but frankly I don't always understand them and in my 33 years on this Earth I've still got a long ways to go (if I ever really get there) but my true delima is whether or not I should take what I've learned from my past and use it for my future or should I try to relive my past knowing now what I didn't know then. An enigma still.
It's a question I've found myself trying to answer for the last month as my brain and heart and common sense duke it out with each other. It's the end of the month and I've decided to leave the past in the past and live for the future (learning what I've learned from the past in order not to make the same mistake in the future).
A canundrum and an enigma roled up into a jigsaw puzzle and game of Tetris in one. Boy do I hate life sometimes.
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Saturday, May 30, 2009
Nothing New, How About You...
Sorry to say this but there is little going on in my world because I'm stuck finishing up several projects all at the same time (then again I guess this means that there is lots new). A list of the current projects (and un-projects) on my plate as of right now:
1. HISTORY OF THE VAMPIRE - a short film that makes up part of a vampire anthology. I am contributing one of the five stories and co-producing this one with director Ron McLellen (JACK O'LANTERN) currently at the healm (and produced by Ondie Daniel). I love the script which is an homage to vampire films and the vampire mythos. I'm doing this project to see how someone else will interpret my work.
2. BLOOD DREAMS - originally intended as part of a two-part vampire anthology of my own but the first draft of the script was so long (at approx. 82 pages) that my business partner thought I should just go ahead and write it as a stand alone film. I'm currently in re-writes to achieve just this.
3. QUEEN OF THE VAMPIRES (3 vampire film) - was originally intended as the second part of the vampire anthology. I'll see how this one goes once I finish the rough draft of the screenplay.
4. SALVAGE - the final vampire film in my one year trilogy - is one I came up with a year before I even thought about writing a vampire film in the first place. This is the only one originally intended as a feature length film and the only one I plan on hoping to direct (once the screenplay is finished). All the other vampire films are intended to be sold and/or directed by other filmmakers.
5. CONTAGIUM - my infecteous disease political film of which is the most interesting for all my actor friends as it has many different roles. I got through 2/3rds of the screenplay before I decided to scrap the whole thing and start all over. I hope to be done with this one before the end of summer.
6. A LOVE SONET - my first love story (which means it's not a horror film) which I've been working on for over 15 months and am 98% close to completion. If all goes well this will be my next film as I do not wish to be pigeon-holed in the horror genre (I hope to film this before going on to CONTAGIUM).
7. HOUSE OF SECRETS - finished filming but now in post production (still logging footage) of which I'm slightly behind schedule and I hope to still be done with by November if I can find an editor to work on deferred payment (if you editors out there are interested contact me at nqmedia@yahoo.com).
8. MISS KITTY & ME - a short film which I'm completely foley on and should be complete and finished by end of summer (part of my CITY GARDEN anthology).
9. THE OLD WOMAN & THE PARK - logging footage for this second short that is part of my three year personal project CITY GARDEN. Hope to have done by end of summer.
10. DIARY OF A FILMMAKER: FILM SERIES - done with the first two episodes and hope to have them both online soon. Plan on having 3-4 more episodes done before the end of the year. This is an internet based series that I'm having done in my spare time inbetween projects. i have approximated 15-20 needing to be done altogether (again if their are editors who will work for free contact me at nqmedia@yahoo.com).
11. I could go into more of the smaller projects but I think this is enough to give you the idea that I'm very busy and point of fact there is always something NEW under the sun. So, how about you?
1. HISTORY OF THE VAMPIRE - a short film that makes up part of a vampire anthology. I am contributing one of the five stories and co-producing this one with director Ron McLellen (JACK O'LANTERN) currently at the healm (and produced by Ondie Daniel). I love the script which is an homage to vampire films and the vampire mythos. I'm doing this project to see how someone else will interpret my work.
2. BLOOD DREAMS - originally intended as part of a two-part vampire anthology of my own but the first draft of the script was so long (at approx. 82 pages) that my business partner thought I should just go ahead and write it as a stand alone film. I'm currently in re-writes to achieve just this.
3. QUEEN OF THE VAMPIRES (3 vampire film) - was originally intended as the second part of the vampire anthology. I'll see how this one goes once I finish the rough draft of the screenplay.
4. SALVAGE - the final vampire film in my one year trilogy - is one I came up with a year before I even thought about writing a vampire film in the first place. This is the only one originally intended as a feature length film and the only one I plan on hoping to direct (once the screenplay is finished). All the other vampire films are intended to be sold and/or directed by other filmmakers.
5. CONTAGIUM - my infecteous disease political film of which is the most interesting for all my actor friends as it has many different roles. I got through 2/3rds of the screenplay before I decided to scrap the whole thing and start all over. I hope to be done with this one before the end of summer.
6. A LOVE SONET - my first love story (which means it's not a horror film) which I've been working on for over 15 months and am 98% close to completion. If all goes well this will be my next film as I do not wish to be pigeon-holed in the horror genre (I hope to film this before going on to CONTAGIUM).
7. HOUSE OF SECRETS - finished filming but now in post production (still logging footage) of which I'm slightly behind schedule and I hope to still be done with by November if I can find an editor to work on deferred payment (if you editors out there are interested contact me at nqmedia@yahoo.com).
8. MISS KITTY & ME - a short film which I'm completely foley on and should be complete and finished by end of summer (part of my CITY GARDEN anthology).
9. THE OLD WOMAN & THE PARK - logging footage for this second short that is part of my three year personal project CITY GARDEN. Hope to have done by end of summer.
10. DIARY OF A FILMMAKER: FILM SERIES - done with the first two episodes and hope to have them both online soon. Plan on having 3-4 more episodes done before the end of the year. This is an internet based series that I'm having done in my spare time inbetween projects. i have approximated 15-20 needing to be done altogether (again if their are editors who will work for free contact me at nqmedia@yahoo.com).
11. I could go into more of the smaller projects but I think this is enough to give you the idea that I'm very busy and point of fact there is always something NEW under the sun. So, how about you?
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